Finally nobody is talking about me. If you don't have anything nice to say then don't say it all. I am not a woman that sleeps around. When guys get mad at me then they start saying mean things to me then I will put them in their place. I am not going to let you treat me dirt. I know God says, “If someone slaps you on the cheek then you need to let them slap you on the other cheek.” I don't know what they are talking about when they talk about me because they are wrong about me. I love children. I have always wanted to be a mother. Every time, I dated a guy then they would take advantage of my nurturing behavior to get me to buy them things because they could not afford what they wanted, so I worked hard for my money, so they used me for a bank, but I am no longer anybody’s bank because I can finally say, “No,” to someone that uses me for money. My female friends used me in the past to get me to go out to dinner with them, but they said, “I have money to pay for dinner,” then they turned around to say, “I don't have money to pay for our meal,” so I feel bad then pay for the meal again. Most of the people I know are on disability, so I know it is hard to live on disability. I am not saying anything bad about being disabled. I am not going to talk about this anymore. I am wanting to be a mom, but if that is not what God wants me to do then I won't do it. If I get pregnant before I get married then God will forgive me, if I ask God to forgive me. I have been taking birth control since I was eighteen years old. I am not going to tell you how old I am now. People already know my address because people put my private information out there. I change my phone number so many times that the Internet search cannot keep up with me changing my phone number. I am going to be there for people that get bullied by the people that bullied me. Nobody texted me on the phone today. I am hearing stories about me that are not true. I have only smoked marijuana in the past. People can say what they want about me. When two people are making up things about me that are not true to get me fired then I am going to confront the office about what is going on at work. I don't text people constantly at work, so there is a liar right there. Then someone else said, “I said something negative,” but they never showed the text that I said negative things about that person. I let them know that I did contact our work office about what was going on, then they wanted to block my phone number, then they wanted me to leave them alone. After that night I deleted their phone numbers. People are saying bad things about me at my old group. I got pulled over at 1:30 a.m. in the morning. He gave me a line test. He gave me the breathalyzer test. Then he made me lift my leg up. He told me, “You failed the test.” I took a blood test for him then he still took me to jail. My dad bailed me out. Grandpa helps me out. My dad got the money back from the time I went to jail then he bonded me out of jail. I went to court then the lady said, “They don't have enough evidence to charge with anything,” so the case got dropped. I was not in the newspaper this time. Police officers do make mistakes. By the way, I don't do drugs. I don't drink. My medicine bottles say don't drink alcohol while taking this medication. I don't know who is saying, “She sells drugs,” but that is a lie about me again. I never sold drugs in my life. I have never been to a party. I am not in trouble. I am going to write three more paragraphs here.
Today was a good day. I am not supposed to talk about my work with anybody. I am so excited that Christmas is coming up. Ms Anthrope is not a believer in Christ, so she is not going to celebrate Christmas because Christmas is the birth of Jesus, but it is a pagan holiday, so I do realize that too. Jenn T is not a believer in Christ, but she used to be a believer in Christ, so I don't know if she celebrates Christmas. I am not going to let people get to me anymore. I am going to make two paragraphs then I will be done with my five page journaling today. I am very happy right now.
Right now, I am going to relax. I have to go to work tomorrow from 8:00 a.m. to 11:30 a.m. Then we are going to get ready to go to church with my brother. We are going to visit his family with him there. Then we are going to spend the weekend with him. I am going to make one more paragraph then I will be done with the journaling.
This is the last paragraph I am going to make here. I am going to journal maybe before I go to work, but if I don't journal in the morning then I will journal after I get off work. I am going to end it here. I am going to put images on my Blogger about people calling other people names. Talk to you later.