almost 2 wks until next pay day and less than $80 left run out of things pawn applying for jobs. I am so scared and stressed every year it never gets better fully while evil gets ahead more and more why believe when bad things just keep happening. pray for good things nope just bad things keep happening. I am at my wit's end with all this. Why not me God? why can't I have full happiness and security? I've suffered enough since I was a child and no one protected me not even you instead the hits have just kept coming. Evil always rewarded while good people hurt. I give up