I really want to end my life. Of course I feel this all the time lately and doesn't make a difference to God

If God isn't testing me
Satan is
And I'd they're not testing me
Someone is being mean to me
And if someone isn't being mean
The world is awful in itself
And if all that isn't happening
I'm getting disciplined


So when is someone supposed to be happy?
I am never happy. All my days are filled with affliction even though I read my Bible and pray literally religiously everyday just to watch everyone i know who doesn't believe in Jesus get everything their hearts desires and im left drowning in my own tears.


Its not worth it. This whole God thing comes with a lot more pain than anticipated and im just done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done.