If you read this you're doing more than most in my life by listening and trying to understand. I need someone to talk to and i don't have anyone so im here. If you pray for me, you're doing more than any single person in my life.

There are parallels here
I have been married for over 3 years and with this man for over 4. He's a pretty good man plus nobody is perfect but his imperfections aren't life ruiners or anything. I feel pretty lucky sometimes that God made THIS man for me. But he isn't always appreciative or nice, but then family members who haven't made an effort in over 7 years all of a sudden see him and his step sister, who ive never met or even really heard about, is all making her profile pic of him and her and texting him and it makes me uncomfortable. I freaked out and ruined everything before they could even meet me. I guess pray that God fixes it but I don't have the emotional capacity to reach out and try to make things right. I'm emotionally tapped out and hurting.

So then God does the same thing. I'm the one who puts effort into him and being good and helping others and serving, praying and reading my Bible and God turns around and blesses everyone and gives them the desires of their hearts but rejects the one person who even actually prayed.

I'm tired of giving my all for men to treat others like they are better when they don't try or even care about God.

I'm just done with all of it. I need love too, if God remembers.